At first, i was really motivated to do well so as to impress you. I want to gain your recognition. I want to be a smart person in your eyes...but all of it, it doesnt even matter anymore. To you, i'm probably just another mere human being in your life ...
There are others who can replace me...
Thats it. I'm not gonna waste my time on things i cant obtain. Its pointless..if something belongs to someone, it belongs to them forever..i cant be bothered to snatch it away, its pointless, its futile. I can never ever replace the special one.
Oh fuck dam it.
Here's a quote:
Never take life seriously,nobody gets out alive anyway.
Why do we abandon things that belongs to us and find other things and get abandoned instead? Or, after abandoning we will be desperately holding onto the things we abandoned.. wtf?
I hate you for making me loving you and then i have to leave you because i am not the special one!
